“What are you going to eat, Mommy?”
This is a relatively common question at our family dinner table the last couple of years from my kids.
Why? Because during my accidental dieting period, I didn’t quite eat what I made for my family.
- There were many weeks when I didn’t eat any flour or sugar.
- There was a whole year when I didn’t eat anything with gluten.
- There were two or so months when I gave up coffee… and maybe chocolate.
Being in my own head, I didn’t see that I was doing anything strange, let alone abnormal.
I thought I was being a good girl and good student because I was staying on my “protocol” or succeeding at my challenges I forced upon myself.
Looking back now, it is crystal clear that I was trapped in the diet mentality of restriction and deprivation. I created a way of eating so that I could achieve my weight goal or feel successful at my own challenges.
I was far from what “normal eating” is for me.
When the clouds parted and I decided to leave the traffic circle of dieting, I returned to what made me and my body feel good.
I stopped labeling food, creating protocols, prohibiting myself from enjoying what I actually so enjoy: good food.
Normal eating for you will look very different from mine, no doubt. I do hope that whatever “normal” looks like to you, you get to enjoy the food with ease, and feel satisfied and nourished.
I can’t tell you how happy I am when the kids still ask me sometimes (much less often now) the question, “What are you going to eat, Mommy?”
I answer them with glee: “I’m eating whatever you’re eating!”